April 30, 2010

Waiting...

Last month, I sent in a recording for the Ladies Musical Club of Seattle annual solo competition, and I'm supposed to be informed of the results tomorrow.  If I am selected, I will participate in the finals competition in June.  If I could make a request, it would be that the email announcing my fate would come in the morning, and not just before bed, because I know that I will be unable to sleep hot off the news whether it's good or bad.  Being selected as a finalist would obviously be my preference.  I would be too elated to sleep--but I have yet to pick my repertoire (suggestions, anyone?), and travel arrangements can be difficult with a young family--so I'd be both elated and worried.  If I'm not selected, I can stop worrying, and just go straight to crying for not meeting the LMC's standards.  

Because of the Granite Publishing rejection, I suspect that I am in the middle of a losing trend, and am trying to prepare for the "crying myself to sleep" scenario.

3 comments:

kimberlee said...

This is the time to practice "mindfulness" and lose your attachments--practices of many Buddhist monks as they learn to meditate effectively. ;-) Or, let me just wish you luck and tell you that whether you do or whether you don't, nothing really changes. You're still on the path until you decide to get off.

Tawna said...

I'm so glad for you that you were able to enter again! I hope you got a good recording made for it. Whether you win or not, you probably really grew in the process of getting your application CD ready. You inspire me to keep going.

Marie said...

You are SO not a loser. Just the fact that you are working so hard on your arranging and playing makes you a winner. I know that sounds cheesy, but it's so true. Honestly, how many moms do you know are working as hard as you are? Give yourself some much deserved credit!